“I Can’t Do This!!!”


As I sat in the Serving Slovakia Send-off last night, a wave of fear rushed over me – “I can’t go to Slovakia and teach English and be an effective witness for Jesus!” I have been to Slovakia several times before so this fear seems so irrational to me. “Piece of cake!” or “I’ve got this mastered” are the thoughts that should be racing through my mind, not this “I-can’t-do-this” fear. But to me fear is an indicator of something else that’s going on. Where is God in my fear and how can I more fully trust Him? What if this fear, this “I can’t do this” fear, is the very thing that will help me to look up to Jesus? So I do. I can’t go to Slovakia without Him! Once again, I look up and say, “Jesus, I can’t do this trip without You. I need your help, Your presence, Your wisdom and all of who You are in order to make this trip. Please fill me with faith in You instead of fear. Help me to remember that You go before me and You are on my side.” His response back: “There is no fear in love…” (1 Jn. 4:18) and “For I know the plans I have for you…” (Jer. 29:11). Then, instead of fear, there is a confident peace.